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    Friday of the First Week of Lent – The Weight of Forgiveness

    Forgive and you will be forgiven – Luke 6:37

    I’m having trouble finding the words today.  

    What can I say about forgiveness? 

    I know I ask for it from our Lord, probably on a daily basis, but am I willing to extend it to others just as easily?

    The passage today says “Forgiveness isn’t a feeling – it’s a decision.”  

    A decision.

    Let’s sit with that for a minute.  “Forgiveness isn’t a feeling – it’s a decision.”  

    To me it’s always been a feeling.  

    Forgiving meant I felt better.  

    It meant it was over.  The offense was null and void and in the past.  

    But is that true?  

    If I’m being totally honest with myself, perhaps it wasn’t null and void.  Perhaps I buried the feelings, but did I really forgive my offender?  

    Or am I still carrying the weight of it all?  Holding onto hurts only to have them bubble up at unexpected times?  

    The passage says, “forgiveness doesn’t erase the past, but it loosens its grip on our hearts.  We’re not only setting others free – we’re healing ourselves.” 

    So…if we embrace those words…we can hand our hurts over to God.

    We can decide to let Him handle it.

    In His way, in His time.  

    And we can begin to heal. 

    As difficult as it may be to accept at times, I suppose it’s true… 

    Forgiveness is a decision.  Deciding to forgive is intentional.  

    And ultimately, it’s freeing.

    So maybe forgiveness is both.

    A feeling and a decision.   

    If I decide to forgive, if I hand my hurts over to God, I’ll feel lighter, happier, more peaceful.

    So…this lent I’ll pray for strength, honesty, and mercy and I’ll pray the same for you.

    Forgive me Lord for my failings and help me to forgive others.  We lay our hurts at Your feet…you can take it from here.  Amen. 

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    Ash Wednesday — Begin Again

    “You can always begin again, because God is more eager to forgive than we are to sin.”  St. Alphonse’s Liguori – The Way of Salvation.

    Begin again…how many times have we tried to do that?  Whether it’s decluttering our homes, re-starting a fitness plan or promising to spend more time in prayer.  

    So how many times can we make the same mistakes and still ask for forgiveness?

    Sometimes I think God is shaking his head at me, thinking “Really?…this again?” (Inserting whatever “this” happens to be at the moment).

    So I wonder…is God’s mercy really unending? 

    Can we really just begin again?

    Can I change the habits that lead me away from God and make choices more in union with His plan?  

    …Let’s leave those thoughts right here for a moment. I think it’s safe to say this writing and reflection project is going to raise many more questions than answers…

    Back to the passage…today it says, “we fast, not to punish ourselves, but to make space for grace”. 

    I typically viewed Lenten fasting as deprivation. 

    I never considered my efforts to fast as a way to give thanks, offer intention, or honor God. 

    Approaching fasting as a way to make space for grace, well…that changes the narrative. 

    What if I try to make my fasting more intentional?

    What if I dedicate it for someone, or something?

    What if I “make space for grace” and accept God’s forgiveness?

    And, as implied in the passage below, this year…my challenge will be to leave my sins in the past…

    “Don’t carry last year’s shame into this new season.  Begin again.  Grace is already here.”